My mom passed away 3 weeks ago. đź’” It was incredibly hard to watch as her body finally shut down.
I didn’t go to the barn the day she passed. I was numb that day, and was on autopilot. I received many pictures of the horses that day which certainly lifted my spirits.
The day after she passed, I managed to get myself dressed and went to the barn. When I got there I was told that Alfie had been acting like a fire breathing dragon when he and Flame were turned out in the arena – something that normally doesn’t happen unless there was an extreme change in weather, which there was not. Apparently he was snorting and prancing around with his tail up which then of course got little Flame all excited. When I looked into the arena, and made eye contact with Alfie, I said to him, your grandma paid you a visit, and he closed his eyes and nodded his head.
I know, you are probably thinking I’m reading way too much into this, but there was a feeling of warm comfort I felt, something I never felt before, it was truly like I was getting a hug from my mom.❤️
The last 3 weeks have been hard, but I am doing OK. Knowing my mom can finally watch all of my rides, adventures and mis-adventures with my 3 boys brings me great joy.
I am forever grateful for the support my mom showed me as I began my equestrian life, even though sometimes she didn’t fully understand the level of my commitment. She enjoyed hearing about everything barn related, and I still chat with her on my drives home from the barn, keeping our nightly “phone calls” the same.
I love you mama.
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